"just doing it for attention"
"When I was younger I started getting very depressed. I also started to hit out and punch walls. Then I began turning the anger on myself and I started self-harming when I was about 13.
"My mum realised how serious it was and went to the local GP, but he said that I was just a kid and I was probably just doing it for attention.
"I started making suicide attempts too and I was referred to CAMHS. I was diagnosed with post traumatic stress disorder, depression and anxiety. I had 4 sessions with a family therapist but then they discharged me because they thought we were coping.
"I wasn't going to school, so I missed out on about a year of school altogether. My friendships suffered too – my friends didn't know what I was going through. I felt isolated.
"After I made a serious attempt on my life, I was taken to a local secure residential unit where I had counselling and was able to talk to someone whenever I felt down, day or night.
"I was there for about 7 weeks before being allowed back home for good, although I was allowed home for weekends sometimes. I was given counselling once a week but that wasn't enough. I spoke to my mum about a lot of things but I know it was a lot for her to cope with.
"I started to call Childline when I was about 14. I was nervous before I called as I didn't know what they'd say and whether they'd judge me. That was my biggest worry, but I knew I needed support.
"I called them and said 'I think I need help' and then I just broke down. They were really friendly and the more I spoke to them the easier it was.
"If it was urgent and I needed to speak to someone straight away because I was angry or felt like self-harming, then I would call them. They calmed me down and gave me advice on techniques to use to stop me self-harming.
"Sometimes I'd send them emails. It really helped writing it all down and knowing that a professional would get back to me and help me. I contacted Childline weekly for about a year. Their website really helped me too.
"It really helped me that I didn't have to meet them face-to-face as that took the pressure off. It didn't matter that I spoke to a different person each time as they were all so friendly and they never rushed me.
"If it wasn't for Childline I might have been sectioned or I might not even be here today. I have recommended Childline to friends and would encourage any young person to contact them if they needed help."
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