Chloe097 / Oct 15 2019 19.20

I was sexually abused and groomed on the 1st September by a paramedic at his flat, I didn't tell anyone till the 21st September as i thought i was going to get in trouble. I didn't know what to do or to talk to so i spoke to ChildLine they passed my details onto the Police an spoke to my mum. I had to do a videowed interbiew with the Police my mum wasnt allowed in with me which was scary. He arranged for me to meet him as he wanted to show me his new flat I told him I couldn't visit him as I was busy and I only came back of my holiday the same day. He started getting angry with me and didn't believe me. He didn't want to arrange it to a different day. It was later on that night he picked me up, I had to lie to my parents saying I was off out with one of my mates as he didn't want anyone else knowing I was going to visit him. He took me to his flat showed me around and then he had me at his wall and sexually abused me. It affects me everyday and I also have to attend court I'm not sure when. I'm frightened when I'm out in the streets or in my house when someone knocks on the door I get scared. I have Flash backs and I just cant cope. I struggle in lessons and think about what happened. I get in trouble for not paying attention. I'm in year 11 starting my exams in May. My schools aware of what's happened and my head of year said I can talk to him when ever I need to talk. But I don't want to feel like I'm bothering him. I have my first counselling session next week but should I still speak to my learning manager how I'm feeling as I can't concentrate in lessons and I'm just upset everyday and just can't cope I blame myself and I don't feel like anyone will understand. Anyone got any advice what I could do

Chloe

Chloe097 / Oct 16 2019 20.38

Hey,

Thank you for replying to my message, I find it hard everyday coping with it all, I'm also struggling a lot in school got a load of homework to do but I just can't concentrate with everything what I'm going through.

Thank you for understanding me and I hope you take care as well

love Chloe Xx

Chloe097 / Oct 15 2019 19.20

I was sexually abused and groomed on the 1st September by a paramedic at his flat, I didn't tell anyone till the 21st September as i thought i was going to get in trouble. I didn't know what to do or to talk to so i spoke to ChildLine they passed my details onto the Police an spoke to my mum. I had to do a videowed interbiew with the Police my mum wasnt allowed in with me which was scary. He arranged for me to meet him as he wanted to show me his new flat I told him I couldn't visit him as I was busy and I only came back of my holiday the same day. He started getting angry with me and didn't believe me. He didn't want to arrange it to a different day. It was later on that night he picked me up, I had to lie to my parents saying I was off out with one of my mates as he didn't want anyone else knowing I was going to visit him. He took me to his flat showed me around and then he had me at his wall and sexually abused me. It affects me everyday and I also have to attend court I'm not sure when. I'm frightened when I'm out in the streets or in my house when someone knocks on the door I get scared. I have Flash backs and I just cant cope. I struggle in lessons and think about what happened. I get in trouble for not paying attention. I'm in year 11 starting my exams in May. My schools aware of what's happened and my head of year said I can talk to him when ever I need to talk. But I don't want to feel like I'm bothering him. I have my first counselling session next week but should I still speak to my learning manager how I'm feeling as I can't concentrate in lessons and I'm just upset everyday and just can't cope I blame myself and I don't feel like anyone will understand. Anyone got any advice what I could do

Chloe

Chloe097 / Oct 15 2019 19.20

I was sexually abused and groomed on the 1st September by a paramedic at his flat, I didn't tell anyone till the 21st September as i thought i was going to get in trouble. I didn't know what to do or to talk to so i spoke to ChildLine they passed my details onto the Police an spoke to my mum. I had to do a videowed interbiew with the Police my mum wasnt allowed in with me which was scary. He arranged for me to meet him as he wanted to show me his new flat I told him I couldn't visit him as I was busy and I only came back of my holiday the same day. He started getting angry with me and didn't believe me. He didn't want to arrange it to a different day. It was later on that night he picked me up, I had to lie to my parents saying I was off out with one of my mates as he didn't want anyone else knowing I was going to visit him. He took me to his flat showed me around and then he had me at his wall and sexually abused me. It affects me everyday and I also have to attend court I'm not sure when. I'm frightened when I'm out in the streets or in my house when someone knocks on the door I get scared. I have Flash backs and I just cant cope. I struggle in lessons and think about what happened. I get in trouble for not paying attention. I'm in year 11 starting my exams in May. My schools aware of what's happened and my head of year said I can talk to him when ever I need to talk. But I don't want to feel like I'm bothering him. I have my first counselling session next week but should I still speak to my learning manager how I'm feeling as I can't concentrate in lessons and I'm just upset everyday and just can't cope I blame myself and I don't feel like anyone will understand. Anyone got any advice what I could do

Chloe